Just Like That

Ok I don’t exactly know y m here..but seems like evry1 blogs these days..n my recent boredom has forced me to think a lil..but for all my fellow bloggers who r gonna read this for sure..ul rnt allowed to expect the kinda blogs ul write..i don write..infact I suck at it..so theres gonna be no themes..no saadharan n asaadharan stuff..no voices in my head speaking with deep emotion here..its gonna be just me..sayin whatever I feel randomly..so..comin back to not writin..i don even read..the no of books iv read can be counted with my fingers..so u can imagine..n ya still inspires me to write(how silly of me na..to dream of bein this big writer..n touchin ppls lives in some way..)but neway m allowed to have my fantasies..

Well recently iv bin havin this weird feelin of empathisin with evry1 aroun me..i mean its funnie at times u know..the other day the liftman in the hospital(ohh there vil be lotsa hospital incidents described further..coz that’s where iv bin spending most of my time dese days..)so the liftman..he was just tired of his job..so he kept bangin doors in his attempt to remove his frustration..he did end up frustratin other ppl instead..n besides its a hospital..soo….but I somehow tend to understand both the sides..although I did get irked at his behaviour..imagine shuttin doors all the freakin time..the whole damn day..n the nurses n the other maids who take care of the sick patients..it reallie needs some kinda extreme emotion..somethin that I cant put in words..to nurse ppl n clean their shit..i mean even if I wudv bin paid 10 times the amount they do..i still wudn do their job..it needs more recognition than what it already has..( I know m soundin like munnabhai n all..but its true..when u see em work that way..u wanna give em a “jaadu ki jappi”)

It was just a moment back that I was grieving n cribbin..well we all grieve n crib..(I just do it a lil more than others..n this time with reason)..n the hospital atmosphere was addin to it..n the next moment..the world seemed like a different place to live in..life took a 360 degree turn..it was one sheet of paper which changed my entire way of livin n thinking..that paper vich said that I have bin rewarded for my hard work n perseverance..n dude rewarded more than handsomely for it..i read it repeatedly..a million times..over a over again..it read my name..n the amount..those were the only two things I saw..they came out poppin then they were twirling..i still cudnt believe it..i love these kinda surprises..iv prayed hard..reallie hard at most times..but never for sumthin like that..besides iv prayed I dunno to whom..coz at most times m always fightin with myself for the very existence of God..n its like this challenge that I put in front of him..every time m in trouble..oh m still not sure if its him..or its some power that rules the world..the power that makes us believe that things will turn out well in the end..soo I still dunno if I am agnostic..woof (agnosticism itself involves doubt n speculation)..n m doubtful bout that too..so u can imagine how bad it is..but I guess lotsa ppl feel in a similar way..so m not crazy to think thatway..cumin back to the challenge..God or that power..whatever it is..always wins it..makes me reinstill my hidden faith..the always fluctuatin faith..i think it shud stop now atleast..n for every person who has felt dejected in life..i wanna share this with you all..

"When you do the common things in life in an uncommon way, you will command the attention of the world."

N ya I may sound silly but I wanna thank everyone whose tolerated my cribbin..not so happie..pessimistic days n made me feel that I can achieve sumthin..well I din make a conscious effort to achieve this..but hell its still an ACHIEVEMENT rite..

Also sorrrie for the waverin of the topics from the hospital to this..but m just too happpie..n besides I did warn that its gonna be totallie random..so I can write nethin newhere!!!